Anonymous
September 1, 2026 at 2:33:35 PM
I can't exactly say who I am but you already know It's me .
I’m sorry .
I’m sorry for keeping you locked inside a cage that I convinced myself was love . I told myself I was protecting you , that I was keeping you close because I loved you too much to let you slip away from me . You deserved a life outside of me . I'm so sorry for getting angry when you finally chose yourself and stepped away from everything I had built around you .
God , Xerra my love , I’m so sorry .
Every person who tried to reach you , every friend who wanted to be there for you , every person I treated like they were a threat simply because they could give you something I couldn't . I isolated you because I was afraid that if you had enough people around you , you'd eventually realize you didn't need me . I loved you so much that I wanted you to belong only to me. I wanted to be the first person you thought about in the morning and the last person you needed at night . And I'm sorry for that .
I don't expect you to forgive me . I don't even know if I deserve to hear from you again. But if there's even the smallest part of you that still wants to say something to me , please , just say it. I keep staring at my phone hoping your name will appear . I keep imagining what it would feel like to finally see a message from you again , even if all you have to say is that you never want me in your life anymore .
I just want to hear your voice . Please , I miss us sleeping on call together .
I miss you in ways I don't know how to put into words . I miss the person you were before I hurt you . I miss the way you looked at me before you had a reason to be afraid of me . I miss the version of us that could have existed if I had loved you properly .
Answer me when you're ready , Xerra . I promise this time , I'll listen.
Replied on: September 1, 2026 at 5:46:41 PM
you're not him. you'll never be him. the real him is gone. don't try to fool me.